NAOKO PLAYLIST
abbey
mitski
i am hungry, i have been hungry,
i was born hungry, what do i need?there is a light, i feel it in me. but only,
it seems, when the dark surrounds me.
there is a dream and it sleeps in me,
keeps me awake in the night,
crying, 'set me free'
achilles come down
gang of youths
the self is not so weightless,
nor whole and unbroken,
remember the pact of our youth.
where you go, i'm going,
so jump and i'm jumping,
since there is no me without you...hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone,
engage with the pain as a motive
angry
boa
the things in life you choose to do
could've been beautiful, but
everything is going coldeverything changes, and
i don't know what was before.
anti-hero
sekai no owari
stay in the lines, don't make a scene,
heroes try to tell us what's right,
but when push comes to shove,
you'll know what i mean- i'm ready
to start a fight
arsonist's lullaby
hozier
my peace has always depended
on all the ashes in my wake
because dreaming costs money, my dear
mitski
i can still smell the fire though i know it's long died out.
the smoke still hangs in my hair and on
some quiet evenings, it burns my eyeswe will manage somehow
don't dare regret anything
remember what you're here for
bloodmoney
poppy
what do you believe when everyone is watching?
what do you believe when nobody is watching?i know what it feels like to have my soul
sucked out of my body, i finally
know what it feels like to be dead.
blood // water
grandson
the price of your greed
is your son and your daughter,
what are you going to do
when there's blood in the water?now i am the violence, i am the sickness
won't accept your silence
beg me for forgiveness
brutus
the buttress
something wicked this way comes
and as i set to face it, i'm unsure
should i embrace it? should i run?
what motivates me? hatred? is it love?
a burning hill
mitski
i'm tired of wanting more, i think i'm finally worn
for you have a way of promising thingsi am a forest fire and i am the fire
and i am the forest and i am a witness watching it.
i stand in a valley watching it and you are not there at all
burning pile
mother mother
all my troubles on a burning pile
all lit up and i start to smile
if i catch fire, then i'll change my aim,
throw my troubles at the world again
cop car
mitski
i get mean when i'm nervous like a bad dogi am cruel, i am gentle, i can make you laughdon't think about the past, always there anyway.
i will never die, i will never die.
i've preemptively blocked all the exits...
so i will burn this movie theater
cryptid
lucas lex
sick to my stomach, i can't stand the thought
of you seeing me for who i truly amtake my soul and crush it up
and throw it all away... make me new
curious/furious
willow
all that we can do is step into dread...
and i'm taking this adventure on my own,
walking through a darkened forest, going homeshielding myself from the depths of my heart
the surface is calm, inside the chaos restarts
don't know what to do, my questions endless
damage you still do
mikayla pasterfield
begging you not to leave again,
too eager to be demeaned, i guessand i'm back there again, a scared little girl
too much pain to share. prayed to a god
but he wasn't there, i put all my faith in youyou don't get to choose when and where to love me
because you don't, and you never, i can't do this forever.
wish you hell on the endeavors you choose.
need to decide which is better, cutting all ties? leaving tethers?
the darker the weather // the better the man
missio
leafless treetops in the snow
views of death and bitter cold
but the darker the weather, the better the man
you can take all you want, but not who i am
decode
paramore
i can't win your losing fight all the time
nor can i ever own what's mine when
you're always taking sides, but you
won't take away my prideyou think that i can't see what kind of man
that you are, if you're a man at all
oh, i will figure this one out on my ownthere is something i see in you
it might kill me, but i want it to be true
a deer mistaking candles for headlights
crywank
i am docile and lazy, i show no respect
you can call me a coward and you'd be correctyou see who i am and that scares me
you see who i am and that's scary
devil town
cavetown
i still get a little scared of something new
but i feel a little safer when i'm with you.
falling doesn't feel so bad when
i know you've fallen this way too
dictator
rei ami
part of me says i want you gone,
who have i become?
i don't mean no harm, but you messed me up
never said sorry for the damage done
divine loser
clem turner
i'm not afraid of death,
i'm just afraid of feeling numbthat fire from within, i put it out to grieve himif i should drift away, please don't revive me
just let me bleed in peacemy body remains, but my purpose just stopped
my habits wouldn't heal, i had to have killed god
and my body remains, but the person is gone.
duvet
boa
and you know i don't mean to hurt you
but you know that it means so much...
i am falling, i am fading, i am drowning
help me to breathe
exit music (for a film)
radiohead
pack and get dressed, before your father hears us
before all hell breaks looseyou can laugh your spineless laugh
we hope your rules and wisdom choke you
now we are one in everlasting peace
we hope that you choke
the family jewels
marina
don't you find it strange?
only thing we share is one last name.
did i beat you at your own game?
typical of me to put us all to shame
family line
conan gray
god, i have my father's eyes
but my sister's when i cry
i can run, but i can't hide
from my family linewonder what i did to deserve this...
how could you hurt a little kid?
i can't forget, i can't forgive you
because now i'm scared everyone
i love will leave meall that i did to try to undo it
all of my pain and all your excuses
i was a kid but i wasn't clueless
someone who loves you wouldn't do this
family tree
ethel cain
he cannot escape his mother's blood
he'll scream and try to wash it off his fingers
but he'll never escape what he's made up ofthe fates already fucked me sideways
swinging by my neck from the family tree
he'll laugh and say 'you know i raised you better than this'
then leave me hanging, so they can all laugh at me
fear of failure / scared of success
shrimp
spend my days in a cage,
don't know what's next
i'm a slave to the skin tight on my flesh
i'm afraid, am i safe to be myself?
firehead
dio
who's that angry man i see? is he coming closer?
well, i'll just make believe that i've never been afraid
fixxxer
metallica
tell me, can you heal what father's done?
or fix this hole in a mother's son?
can you heal the broken worlds within?
can you strip away so we may start again?
can you heal what father's done?
or cut this rope and let us run?
just when all seems fine and i'm pain free,
you jab another pin in me
flight of the crows
jhariah
well i think that i've gotta go
and i don't know why
but i need you to promise that you won't cry
because you'll be fine, and so will i.
so just let the thought of me die
and please let me know,
let those old memories go.
feed me to the crows.
please, understand that i will
find a brand new life, my golden second try...just let me out of your mind.
in the morning, you'll learn i disappeared
off into the night so quietly.
that your love for me will vanish too
ghost
badflower
all i really wanted was
someone to give a little fuck,
but i waited there forever
and nobody even looked up
the great pretender
freddie mercury
i seem to be what i'm not, you see.
i'm wearing my heart like a crown,
pretending that you're still around
head over heels / broken
tears for fears
i'm lost in admiration, could i need you this much?
oh, you're wasting my timei made a fire, and watching it burn, thought of your future.
with one foot in the past, now just how long will it last?
now, now, now, have you no ambitions?
home
cavetown
i'm a little sick right now, but i swear,
when i'm ready, i'll fly us out of here...i'll figure out a way to get us out of here
hungover in the city of dust
autoheart
insolent and out of character,
we've changed so much i barely
recognize our formative lives
hidden deep underground,
and they won't come back
identity
grandson
nobody really cared
so it never really mattered,
it never really mattered,
so it never really happened,
what's the point in fighting
for a happy ever after?
the past keeps haunting the future,
i imagine
i don't even care about you (stripped)
missio
depressed again, angry again,
let me sit alone with the kerosene...
i don't even care about you
it should've been me
riproducer
it should've been me,
you should have picked me from the start
and after everything i've done for you,
you don't think it's bizarre?
it should've been me,
where do you think i got my spark?it shouldn't be me, and here i thought i was above
but now it's clear to me you saw
that i'm unworthy of your love
it's never enough
we are the dirt
falling apart is much harder than it seems,
you don't just crumble to pieces, there's a lot more in between.
clawing out my eyes so everything i see
won't remind me of you
but when i turn on the radio, i hear your voice
in the static coming through.but i feel you in my dreams
and you're next to me
and you're never real.
it tore your heart out
dirt poor robins
such a pure devotion to your skin,
who'll absolve you from your sin?
jane doe
hail the sun
we wonder
we question
why are you gone?the family grieves, the memories remain
the years washing away.
we question the outcome, the fairness.
we wonder what will happen to us.
we struggle to let go in anger.
we ask aloud, why are you
woven on the coattails of a ghost?
the killing kind
marianas trench
what if i was wrong by never moving on,
i didn't realize who's gone.
the ghost in me was true, but
you were haunted too, just
didn't see it all along.if madness overtakes us both
then nobody would be alone
the ghost of us can linger here
forever not to disappearhere and now, if this is it,
why don't we just savor it?
lullabies
all time low
make it a sweet goodbye,
it could be for the last time, and it's not right.
'don't let yourself get in over your head,' he said.
alone and far from home, i'll find you
dead, like a candle you burnt out.
spill the wax over the spaces
left in place of angry words...forevers's never seemed so long,
as when you're not around.
it's like a piece of me is missing.
i could have learned so much from you,
but what's left now?
don't you realize you showed this family
a world of pain?
can't you see this could've been
a happy ending we let go?
monet issues
chase petra
disown me, don't owe me,
i don't want your money.
feel free to leave me out of your will.
your words again pour poison,
and don't it sound like projection?
you're guided by misdirection,
down roads that lead nowhere.did it all on my own
put my heart back together aloneblood doesn't mean a thing
when you cannot fucking breathe,
and you lose yourself completely.
blood doesn't mean a thing
when vitriol haunts your sleep
and permeates your family.
needed a change of pace
jhariah
fled the scene, nimble, my hands kept clean.
i needed a change of pace.how could you love me so?
with all i've done and the things you know?never belonged in that place,
played along in that place,
til i had enough of the games.i've come to realize i'd rather flee than fight.
to fake your death is the most honest life.
numb
linkin park
i'm tired of being what you want me to bedon''t know what you're expecting of me,
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
every step that i take is another mistake to you.all i want to do is be more like me
and be less like you.
can't you see that you're smothering me?
holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
paranoia on main street
demi the daredevil
i'm all alone, always have been
all i have's this hope,
i could be so much more than just,
just a number, baby.i'm paranoid that you'll see me
for what i am underneath.
i feel like there's a set of invisible eyes
always staring always watching.
ptolemaea
ethel cain
you'd do well to say yes to me...blessed be the daughters of cain
bound to suffering eternal
through the sins of their fathers
committed long before their conception.
blessed by their whore mothers
tired and angry, waiting with bated
breath in a ferry that will never move again.
blessed be the children,
each and every one come to know
their god through some
senseless act of violence.
blessed by you, girl.
promised to me by a man who can
only feel hatred and contempt towards you.
i am no good nor evil, i simply am.
and i have come to take what is mine.
i was there in the dark when you
spilled your first blood.
i am here now, as you run from me still.
run then, child.
you can't hide from me forever.
ragdoll
palaye royale
in this house that has taught me nothing,
people ask, why not burn it down?
saint bernard
lincoln
there's really just one thing that we have in common,
neither of us will be missed.
sins of the father
black sabbath
you are the innocent convicted of the crime.
no one was ever there to catch you when you fall.and if the pain were gone
and you were free to run away
and get out, would you get out of there?you're the only witness
to the murder of an angel,
how much longer are you going to pay?
the tower
drama moth
paint me as the villain once again,
only evil knows evil, my friend.
draw your cards and watch your heroes fade.don't try to act like it's not real.
you messed with the dark side,
how does it feel?
wish you were here
pink floyd
such a pure devotion to your skin,
who'll absolve you from your sin?
wolf in sheep's clothing
set it off
you sink your teeth into the people
you depend on, infecting everyone,
you're quite the problem...maybe you'll change-
abandon all your wicked ways,
make amends and start anew again.
maybe you'll see all the wrong you did to me,
and start all over
abbey mitski
achilles come down gang of youths
angry boa
anti-hero sekai no owari
arsonist's lullaby hozier
because dreaming costs money, my dear mitski
bloodmoney poppy
blood // water grandson
brutus the buttress
a burning hill mitski
burning pile mother mother
cop car mitski
cryptid lucas lex
curious/furious willow
damage you still do mikayla pasterfield
the darker the weather missio
decode paramore
a deer mistaking candles for headlights crywank
devil town cavetown
dictator rei ami
die johnny goth
divine loser clem turner
duvet boa
exit music (for a film) radiohead
the family jewels marina
family line conan gray
family tree ethel cain
fear of failure / scared of success shrimp
firehead dio
fixxxer metallica
flight of the crows jhariah
ghost badflower
the great pretender freddie mercury
head over heels / broken tears for fears
home cavetown
hungover in the city of dust autoheart
identity grandson
i don't even care about you missio
it should've been me riproducer
it's never enough we are the dirt
it tore your heart out dirt poor robins
jane doe hail the sun
the killing kind marianas trench
lullabies all time low
monet issues chase petra
needed a change of pace jhariah
numb linkin park
paranoia on main street demi the daredevil
ptolemaea ethel cain
rag doll palaye royale
saint bernard lincoln
sins of the father black sabbath
split! jhariah
sweet revenge bangs
this is love air traffic controller
throw away children dio
the tower drama moth
until it doesn't hurt mother mother
villains of circumstance queens of the stone age
vulture culture fangclub
weight of the world shayfer james
what can i do if the fire goes out? gang of youths
when it's cold i'd like to die moby
whose eye is it anyway??? jhariah
wish you were here pink floyd
wolf in sheep's clothing set it off